I finally got my email inbox cleaned out! I still have 216 *read* emails that I am saving for one reason or another. I use gmail (from Google) and they have these handy labels you can assign to your emails and an archive function to get them out of the way, but if I archive them, how will I remember later that I have them? They’re not about any certain subject that I would be apt to look up at a later date. I guess I’ll just leave them as they are for now. Maybe in a few months, I won’t need some of them and I can delete them. Now I’m less likely to miss important up-do-date emails, so I feel like I have really accomplished something.
I’m almost hyperventilating at the thought of posting this on my blog where anyone can see it, but I need to make a point. (I’ve always been sensitive about my weight- though I’ve never been overweight OR anorexic or bulimic).
This is me with 18 days to go till my due date. My “waist” is only 40″ around. So I’m a lot smaller than most people are used to seeing. I’m so sick of people (read “other women”) assuming that because I’m small, I can’t possibly be uncomfortable. Hello? Maybe I’m uncomfortable BECAUSE I’m small. The baby has nowhere to go. I’m healthy and the baby is healthy, so I’m aware that we’re blessed while others aren’t. That doesn’t make *right now* any easier.
Jack came at 35 weeks (surprise! not a baby item in the house yet) and was 6# 2 oz. On his due date, he was only 7# & 2 or 3 oz. I’m pretty sure this baby is going to be bigger than he was, which really isn’t helping matters. With Jack, I never got the point where I was really uncomfortable (I was small with him, too) or tired of being pregnant. This time, I was already done by 31 or 32 weeks.
I think I’m through venting now. Maybe now I won’t hit the next person who tells me I can’t be uncomfortable because I’m so small.