Life Just Sucks Sometimes

I don’t care who you are, life just sucks sometimes. My uncle lost his battle with liver cancer today, and my emotions are all over the place.

I’m angry because I’m so sick of cancer.

I’m heartbroken for my dear aunt who lost the love of her life. They didn’t have nearly enough time together.

I’m sad for my cousins who lost their father. They’re all in their 20s and 30s. That’s way too young to be without your dad.

I hurt for my cousins’ children, some of whom are not old enough that they’ll remember their grandpa when they’re grown. He adored his grandchildren and I know my cousins won’t let his memory fade away.

I’m feeling an almost-panic that it could very easily have been my dad. It was only 3 1/2 years ago that Daddy was diagnosed with colon cancer, then after a year-long fight and treatments, he got the all-clear. Then later that same week, he was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, and had to undergo treatment for that. He’s cancer-free now, but the fear never goes away completely.

 

What I’ve Been Doing Lately

Ever feel like you’re busy all day, yet not getting anything done? Lately, I’ve been in “research mode” so I’ve been feeling that way. My kids haven’t starved and the house is still standing, so apparently, I’ve been doing *something*. LOL

I’m researching two different things. One is alternative cancer treatments, prevention and cures. The other is gluten-free cooking. Can I just say my kids LOVE raisin bread? Don’t tell them some kids snack on candy and chips. LOL Everytime I make a loaf of bread, I think, “When did I become this person?” Ten years ago, I never would have thought I would be making bread from scratch. (Right now I’m using a gluten-free mix, but I have made several loaves from scratch.) And cookies and brownies and cupcakes with homemade frosting. Yes, I was kidding earlier. My kids do get “junk” food, but it’s homemade junk food. (They really do go through a lot of raisin bread, though.)

As for the cancer information, I started a blog for that and a page on facebook. Actually, the blog is different kinds of health information. The blog and the facebook page.

But wait! There’s more! Several years ago, while training for the Breast Cancer 3-Day, I was looking for different places to walk. That’s a lot of training and walking in the same places gets old fast. Also, I was looking for places with longer paths and trails that I had here. I scoured the internet looking for recreation department websites that would tell me about their parks and walking paths. Most counties didn’t even have anything about their parks and even fewer said anything about trails or paths. So I started my own site. After 2 years, the financial and time committment became too much for me and the site had to go. Now I’ve started a new siteon wordpress.com and it’s free, so I don’t have to worry about that. I’ve also decided that it would be much easier and more interactive if visitors could share about their favorite parks and paths instead of me trying to make my way all over the metro Atlanta area to find parks. (Note: The site didn’t pick up any interest, so I removed it after a year or so to downsize my blog/internet time.)

So check out the new sites and share them with your friends. I don’t think I’ll be starting a gluten-free blog or site. LOL There are more than enough of those out there with much better information than I could ever post.